The morning started taking Sheila to the vet.
Her back leg was swollen and she had some lumps I'd found. She also
needed an annual exam (about 2 years late). She has been panting a lot
lately, which I figured was at least partly caused by the rising
temperatures lately.
She's such a perfect dog to take
anywhere. She loves sitting in the back seat and looking out the
window. I usually open the window a crack and she sticks her nose out.
Today, she was happy to just sit there and look--didn't get up to stick her
nose out the widow. I attributed it to the bum leg. And she
loves everybody. That stump of a tail just wagged a mile a minute
whenever anybody came into the vet's waiting room.
She weighs
51 lbs, up about 5 lbs from last time she was weighed. Then the doctor
looked at her leg and said he would give me some antibiotics and see if that
helped.
Then he checked the lumps I'd noted and asked if he
could take some aspirates and see if he could figure out what was going on.
He listed a few possibilities, the last of which was "lymphoma" (why does
nobody say "cancer" any more? Is lymphoma a less painful word to
use?). But he was encouraging because he said that if it was
lymphoma, we had caught it early. This was a good thing.
He took the samples and said that he would call me later, and if I had not
heard from him by 5 p.m., to give him a call. He also told me he
always reads my reviews.
The word "lymphoma" hung heavy in my
head and I decided to take Sheila to Jack in the Box to share a cheeseburger
with her. She ate half of it and I was going to split the second half
with her, but she wasn't interested.
We came home to wait for
the call. At 5 p.m., I called him. I could tell just by the way
he said "hello" that the news was not good. "It's lymphoma," he said,
"...and we're probably talking weeks..." Weeks?
What happened to "lucky that we caught it early" ?? So now there are
decisions to be made. We've decided against chemo, which would be
around $2,500, which, much as we love her, seems extravagant for a 12-13
year old dog. We're going to start Prednisone and see if that will
slow things down. Ashley tells me there are lymphoma trials at the vet
school, but they seem to involve week-long stays there and injections and
tests. If Sheila is in her last weeks, I don't want her to spend them
confused about why we've sent her to some place where she has to live in a
cage and be hurt regularly.
Needless to say I'm a bit
emotional right now, which may explain the second catastrophe of the
day...distracted brain function. I baked chicken thighs for dinner and
when it came time to get them out of the oven, the pan they were in kind of
tilted, spilling a whole bunch juice on the oven floor.
Thinking I would take care of it right away, turned on the self-clean
oven feature. In a matter of seconds, there was thick smoke pouring
out of the top of the stove, every room was filled with smoke, and every
smoke alarm was going off (this lasted for half an hour and not a single
neighbor came to check on us!)
This is after about 20 minutes, when the smoke was starting to clear...
I didn't get the real dramatic scenes!
Walt had every fan we have blowing, and I tried to turn off the cleaning
feature, but the smoke was so thick that I couldn't see the controls on top
of the stove to find the right button (but I sure did get a taste of what it
must be like to die of smoke inhalation!)
I was finally able
to turn off the self-cleaning feature, but then I discovered that there was
a fire in the oven.
I
thought the liquid was on fire but after the oven door finally
unlocked, Walt discovered a charred chicken thigh that had burned to a
crisp.
The house was so smoky, we
couldn't eat inside, so decided to eat on the patio. Sheila,
uncharacteristically, was sleeping somewhere and not begging for
food.
I feel like shit. I
love this dog. She's the first dog we've ever had who is
really mine more than anyone else's. They are all ours,
of course, but Sheila was mine first.
5 comments:
I'm so sorry. Lots of hugs headed your way.
So sorry Bev. She is a special dog and you gave her a wonderful life.
I've only just discovered your blog but I am so sorry. I also have a 14 year old dog so I know it's just a matter of time. They really, really creep into our hearts.
I'm so sorry Bev and Walt. :( Dogs should really live forever.
Hugs to you and your husband. Dogs just aren't with us long enough, and having to make those end-of-life care decisions is even more difficult.
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