Sunday, March 17, 2013

Monterey

So here we are in Monterey, Lynn and I.  I can't remember the last time I was here, but it is beautiful as ever. Remembering the last time I saw Lynn is easier.  I visited her a month after she moved to San Diego and she was only there for 3 months, so I last saw her in July of 2012.

We decided to meet in the middle.  She now works in Santa Barbara and it's about a 4-5 hour drive (according to Yahoo) from there and it's about a 3-4 hour drive from Davis.  And we knew this would be a fun town to explore.

I got here shortly after noon and sent her a text saying I couldn't get in the hotel parking lot until she got here and that I was going in search of a bathroom.  By the time I had returned from McDonalds (after nearly killing myself trying to go the wrong way down a street), parked at a beach parking lot next to the hotel, and taken a picture of where we will be for the next two nights, she had already checked in. (She obviously drives faster than I do.)

 Our hotel

We settled into our room and took pictures of the photo shoot that was going on in the hotel pool.  I don't know what this is for, but I did manage to get a picture of the bride and groom as they leaped into the pool! (The guy IN the pool has an underwater camera.)


 We had checked the internet and found a restaurant we wanted to try on Fisherman's Wharf, Old Fisherman's Grotto...I found the Monterey Fisherman's Wharf not all that different from San Francisco's, but fewer junky gift shops.
 
The restaurant was lovely.  The only thing that was a disappointment was that there were no free window seats, but we settled ourselves in with some nice local wine and, of course...
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This was garlic roasted crab and it was wonderful, as was the couscous that it rested on.
The two of us polished off a whole bottle of Pinot Grigio and a fabulous--one of the best I've tasted--creme brulee.


Then we went walking along the wharf and checked out junky souvenir stand before heading back to the hotel.  I discovered that Tom and Laurel have done exactly what Walt and I did.  They have one child (Brianna) whose name is very easy to find on stuff, and one (Lacie) whose name is impossible to find.  I figure I have about one more year of getting Brianna stuff before I have to stop because Lacie will feel left out!

We are both so stuffed from the huge lunch that we are probably just going to order some hors d'oeuvres from the hotel restaurant, sit by the windows in the lobby and watch the ocean.

It's so great to see Lynn again!

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Witness to History

I would have been an OK reporter of events than an actual participant.  Some time ago, I transcribed a whole bunch of interviews of women active in SNCC (the Student Nonviolent Coordinating Committee), an organization that was part of the Civil Rights Movement of the 1960s.  I was so in awe of these brave women and the things they went through working with voter registration drives.

I have never had that kind of courage, to get in there and work with the demonstrators for a cause I believe in.  (When our kids were in nursery school, we met a woman who had been in the South during the Civil Rights Movement and who had been arrested.  It changed her life, for sure.  I admired her, but even thinking about what she went through scared me.)

I was at Berkeley (working for the Physics Department) during the Free Speech Movement.  My bosses were part of the Academic Senate that was supposed to be sorting things out. I supported what the students were trying to do, to bring information tables about off-campus issues (specifically the civil rights movement) onto campus. :"On September 14, 1964, Dean Katherine Towle announced that existing University regulations prohibiting advocacy of political causes or candidates, outside political speakers, recruitment of members, and fundraising by student organizations at the intersection of Bancroft and Telegraph Avenues would be 'strictly enforced.'"

But my chosen "participation" place was safely in the Student Union, overlooking Sproul Plaza, while demonstrators massed there, while Mario Savio was giving firey speeches and our priest, Jim Fisher tried to calm the demonstrators down.  I took pictures.  I took video.  I didn't take part in the action.

A few years later Cesar Chavez came along to start the United Farm Workers Union, working to get proper working conditions for farm workers (50 years later they are still trying!).  I dutifully didn't buy grapes, didn't shop at certain stores, and watched Chavez on TV.  We even participated in a rally, sort of.   There was a long march that ended...I don't remember where.  I was very, very pregnant with Jeri at the time and couldn't do the march, but we showed up at the end and had lunch with the marchers.  I felt guilty that I was enjoying their reward when all I had walked was maybe a block of two, if that. (they did have the best tortillas, I remember!)

We missed the whole People's Park kerfuffle entirely since we had moved away from the campus area and were busy birthin' babies.

I've attended many gay rights demonstrations and marched in the Gay Pride Parade in San Francisco twice, but I always bring a camera and hide behind it, so I can be part of it...but apart from it, sort of.

I did walk from the Capitol to the reflecting pool in Washington, DC during one of the AIDS marches and I was one of the volunteers at the quilt, but it was pretty low key participation.

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(Guess who is taking the photo!  Me!)

The fire of activism is in my soul, but it somehow never makes it to my body.  You won't find me carrying a billboard or chanting slogans, but Iwill take a picture of other people doing it.

Well, I did make an exception once.

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But it was a borrowed sign that I held only long enough for Olivia to take my picture.  Otherwise, I was in the crowd, but with my trusty camera, taking pictures.

In the recesses of my mind I'm a wild-eyed radical who is willing to make the ultimate sacrifices for the causes I believe in.  But in reality, I'll take pictures, sign petitions, and post things on FaceBook.

While this was a lousy excuse when I was in my 20s, at least now being 70 may excuse me from more active participation!  But I do care.   Honest!

Friday, March 15, 2013

Performance Anxiety

Swell.  Someone recommended my journal to someone else tonight, which was very sweet (and flattering) of her...but now I feel performance anxiety for writing a good entry tonight, which ain't gonna be easy!

To get the most important business out of the way first, for all of you who couldn't care less, there is no news on Nana tonight.  She's still pacing around her stall, still big as...well...a horse...and no signs of labor.  Karen said she gave her a bath today, which she seemed to like, since it was so hot, but I haven't seen a sign of her lying down all day, and since I can now get the barn cam on my cell phone, I was able to check many times throughout the afternoon at Logos.

The second thing is something I hesitate to mention, for fear of jinxing it, but something strange is happening with my body.  The two numb fingers are still numb, but less numb.  I realized a couple of days ago that I haven't had problem typing "p" or "o" in days.  The fingers still feel numb, but the kind of numbness you feel when your foot, which has gone asleep, is starting to wake up.  I've gotten so used to not having full use of those fingers, that it will be weird if they actually un-numb after all those years!

Today was my monthly lunch with my friend Kathy at the Olive Garden.   She is "8 lunches" (she says) away from retirement so on our 9th lunch from today, she is going to have something to drink stronger than iced tea because she won't have to go back to work after lunch.

There was lots to discuss today, mostly the election of the Pope, though we covered lots of topics, as we always do.  I was very happy to hear her say that the charges that have been swirling around ever since Pope Francis was elected, about his cooperation with the military junta in Argentina in arresting activist priests and imprisoning them has been refuted by Amnesty International.  He seems like a nice guy and I'd like not to hate him for a little while anyway, though he does thinks that "adoption by gay families is discrimination against children" and that women are not fit to be in positions of authority, but then I would expect nothing less from a 70-something year old Cardinal.  One can only hope he's open to discussing some of these issues eventually.

Walt points out one good thing about this new Pope...at least the Pope is still older than we are (but not by much!)  No Doogie Howser in the Vatican yet!

Now that Kathy is a "short timer," she is more casual about our lunches and we often linger after the salad and soup are finished.  This is great from a friendship standpoint, but I have to get to work in Davis by 2 p.m.  Today, I desperately wanted a nap before work.  If I had gotten home 30 minutes (even 20 minutes) sooner, I would have taken a quickie nap, but as it was, I barely had time to use the bathroom and get back in the car so Walt could drive me to the book store.

The afternoon went more or less uneventfully and after dinner I settled in for Nana-watch again.  Around 11:30 or so, I came in here to start writing this entry.  I decided to check on Nana once again and she was down!  

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I thought she was giving birth right then, when I saw the dark spots on either side of her tail, but apparently it was her water breaking.  The birth itself didn't take all that long, and I got to sit here and watch the whole thing.   Karen was there to assist in the birth and to spread hay around the stall after the baby was born.  I watched until she finally got up on her legs.

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I like the second from the right at the bottom--baby's first photo!

At least Nana-watch has finally ended and I was lucky enough to catch her just in time!  I just checked the camera again.  Nana is lying down and baby Muffin is exploring her new world.  So cute!

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Bald as a Billiard Ball

14 March 2013
Poster.jpg (37847 bytes)It was that time again.  Time for St. Baldrick's Foundation to have its annual fund-raiser for children's cancer research.  Our friend Nancianne had her head shaved last year at this time and we went down to support her, take pictures, and take her to dinner.

We had such fun and Nancianne seemed to enjoy having us there so much that we decided to do it again this year.  A couple of other people said they were going to come, but weren't able to be there, so it was just us again.
This is a real feel good event.  It is held at DeVere's Irish pub.  Last year they shaved people under a tent on the sidewalk in front of the pub; this year they were off to the side, with the registration table on the sidewalk.

St. Baldrick, I learned today, is the oldest foundation raising money for children's cancer research.  Most of its fund raising comes about at head-shaving events like this.  They've been at it since 1999 and have raised over $118 million, with shaves taking place in all 50 states and 28 countries world-wide.

I had to take her photo before the shaving started, of course.

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Nancianne is a professor at American River College, and possibly not your typical shavee (she hates that term, which she insists is not a real word to be found in any dictionary!), but she always sees at least one of her students at the event (a guy who works for the pub).  I thought this guy was one of her students, since he greeted her so warmly.

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But he was just another guy there for the shaving.  It's amazing how quickly you can shave a head!

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When it was all over, there was a round of applause from all the beauticians and other baldees in the area (as well as spectators like Walt and me)

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Last year DeVere's gave the shavees (sorry, Nancianne) a free drink when it was all over but they didn't do it this time.  So we bought Nancianne's drink as well as her dinner.

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We lucked out because a bunch of guys from a bagpipe group in a nearby town had been shaved, so some of their friends were there to seranade them.

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And you know how much I enjoy a good bagpipe!

The atmosphere in DeVere's was festive and it was fun being there surrounded by all those bald people.  Really a fun evening and I'm glad we were there to share it with Nancianne.

No new Nana update.  She's still hanging in there...and I now have her web site on my cell phone so I can check it when I'm out!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Tidbits

This was one of those days where things didn't go quite as I'd planned.

My plan was to write tonight about my trip with my mother to see the first independent living place we were going to tour.  However, I was almost out the door, car keys in hand, when the phone rang and it was her.  She was not feeling well, she said.  Her back was bothering her, she felt nauseous, and she thought she "might be coming down with something."

So, I called Scott and rescheduled for next week.  This time he remembered to ask me what her favorite color and flower were--I'm sure he will have a corsage for her, if/when we ever get there.

In truth, I was kind of glad she canceled.  I was not feeling well myself, but not bad enough to cancel the day.  One of those things where you aren't quite right, but you can't define what 'not right" means!  It gave me a good excuse to lie down in the sun on the couch this afternoon and take a nice nap.

I now had the day free.  No trip to Marin County, and Walt was going to work.  I decided to write an entry about the birth of Nana's foal.   I've been watching Nana for 3 days now and surely she would deliver today.

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I  watched, off and on pretty much all day, in between doing other things.  At one point I made a comment on Facebook that someone needed to clean her stall because she had defecated quite a bit.  Within a matter of minutes, Karen's husband Michael was in the stall cleaning it and Karen was leaving a message for me on Facebook.

I love those little social media interactions.  Tonight, for example, I read a message on Twitter from the wife of someone who is in rehearsal for the latest Lamplighters show.  Her message asked that if anybody in the show was checking Twitter while they were off stage, could they please ask her husband to check his phone, because he needed to call their daugher.  (I never found out if that message got delivered, but it tickled me just to read it).

I got excited a couple of minutes ago when I went to check on Nana and saw that she was actually down.

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But in a minute, she was back up again, walking around the stall, very restless.  Every so often she turns and looks at her huge abdomen.  Poor baby.  I know how she feels. I'm thinking she may deliver tonight (with all my expertise of equine midwifery, ya know!)  Last night I actually woke up thinking about her and got up to check on her.  I'm 400+ miles away and have only met Karen face to face once in my life, about 20 years ago, and I'm losing sleep over a horse in labor!

The mail brought our first issue of Travel & Leisure magazine.   It's not a magazine either of us would have subscribed to, but it was a gift from Viking Cruises--I'm still not sure why.  This first issue was the Food Issue, with lots of mini reviews of restaurants all over the world that I will never visit.  (One article talks about a restaurant n Dubai where it is posted the minimum a man is expected to spend -- $50).

But I was fascinated by an article about Ramen.  It's called "Bone Soup: A Love Story" and is described as "hungry, hopeful and hopelessly obsessed, Adam Sachs travels to the Japanese island of Kyushu to seek out the spiritual home of his beloved tonkotsu ramen."  I certainly learned that the "ramen" of which he is so fond bears absolutely no resemblance to the top ramen that we fix here at home!

Did you know there are web sites devoted to ramen?  Lots of them, apparently, including this one, by a guy who travels around Japan eating ramen and reporting on his experiences, including maps of where he had whichever ramen is is reviewing.  There are magazines devoted solely to ramen, ramen TV shows, comic books, and competitions.
I am obviously going to have to treat ramen with more respect from now on.


ADDENDUM:  I was up twice during the night to check on Nana, but she's still pregnant as of 5 a.m. this morning.

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

The Old Perspective

Today was one of those days where I realized how old I am...which is not, this time, really a bad thing, just an observational thing.

First, I attended a nutrition class this afternoon, at Kaiser.   This was where they give you all sorts of written material and go over "food exchanges" for you and suggestions for how to keep carbohydrate intake in check.

The room was full (the last class I attended was just two of us).   Most were old farts like me and many seemed confused by the information they were being fed.  One woman, who glowered for the first 45 minutes and then stalked out of there, seemed to have no concept of taking glucose readings.  Others couldn't seem to get the idea that "1 exchange" didn't mean that was all you could eat, but that you had to combine it with everything else to figure out your ideal intake for the day.

I sat there half listening and wondering exactly how many times, in my lifetime, I have heard similar talks or read similar things on the various diets I have followed throughout my life, or at least the last 60 years (since I went on my first diet at age 10).  Food exchanges are the backbone of many of the versions of the Weight Watchers diets I've been on.  Other than getting the helpful written lists of exchanges, there was nothing new in this material for me, and I just kind of sat in amazement at how many people were having difficulty grasping the concept.

On the drive home, I was listening to NPR and heard that the latest craze among young people is cameras.  You remember cameras?  The non-digital kind.  The kind you put film in.  The kind where you can't see your pictures until it comes back from the corner drug store or wherever it is that you used the take film.  I thought it was impossible to get old time cameras and even more difficult to find somewhere that can develop film, but apparently not.  The radio announcer said this is not a nostalgia wave, but kind of an "everything old is new again," with teenagers who want the old time look that they can get on Instagram, but want the whole experience. Just when I'm so thrilled at the quality of digital photos!

INTERESTING ASIDE:  Also on NPR on the ride home, something which has nothing to do with my feeling old, but which I found fascinating.   Professor Randall Thompson of St. Luke's Mid American Heart Institute in Kansas City has been performing CT scans on mummies, over 4000 years old, from all over the world -- Alaska, the American Southwest, Peru and Egypt.  Of the 137 examined, 47 (34%) showed signs of atherosclerosis (clogged arteries). "The fact that we found similar levels of atherosclerosis in all of the different cultures we studied, all of whom had very different lifestyles and diets, suggests that atherosclerosis may have been far more common in the ancient world than previously thought," says Thompson.

Here we are, not smoking, following a sensible diet, avoiding fats, and exercising regularly to avoid atherosclerosis and it turns out that it may be inevitable in some people anyway!  Pass the McD's fries and the Sees Candy, please...

So, back to me feeling old.  I stopped at the supermarket to pick up a few things.  One thing I found was that I was mistaken about those $16 mushrooms.  They were apparently special ones which had been sold out when I took that picture.  Today the sign still there, but the mushrooms were the wide, flat-surfaced ones which were next to the ones I thought had had the humongous leap in price.  I feel better about that!

While I was wandering through the fresh produce aisle, I ran into Shelly and Ellen, with whom I had not visited in some time, so we stopped to chat. They told me that they had participated in a rally at the Galleria in Roseville last weekend.   A week ago, two men were evicted from the mall because they were holding hands and kissing.  

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Needless to say, the LGBTQ community was up in arms and decided to show the Galleria that this was not the kind of discrimination that they would take lying down.  No young heterosexual lovebirds have ever been evicted for showing affection.

Plans for a demonstration, first called a "kiss in" and then changed to (I think) "Love is Love" was organized.  Naturally Shelly and Ellen were there and they were amazed that over 300 people showed up.

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The organizers were disappointed at the "small" turnout; Shelly and Ellen were amazed at the large turnout.  They remember the days when they would invite 1,000 people to a demonstration and be happy if a dozen showed up.

Not only that,but the mall was totally in support of the demonstration, served the demonstrators hot chocolate with whipped cream and Mrs. Fields gave them cookies.  They had given sensitivity training to their employees.   They even flew in the guy who may have been the only gay guy in their upper echelons they could find, but they flew him in from Los Angeles to address the crowd and talk about himself and his boyfriend.  There was lots of support of "straight allies" and the press gave good coverage to the event.

The the three of us were kind of laughing about this thing when I asked them if ten years ago they could ever, in their wildest imagination picture what is happening now, with lots of states approving same sex marriage, the President encouraging the Supreme Court to overturn California's odious Prop 8, and even Clinton saying he was mistaken in signing the Defense of Marriage Act and saying that it should be overturned.

"Modern Family," which has a gay couple raising a child is the most popular comedy on television and has won lots of awards, including awards for its gay characters.  It's difficult to find a regular show on TV these days that does not have a gay character.  So far the horses have not run crazy in the streets.

The tide is turning and it seems impossible to realize how far the gay community has come in a short period of time.  It seems that things are snow balling now and there is a whole new set of problems about to come up...that being what happens if DOMA is overturned...that will open so many doors to so many different rights that it will take years to sort it all out.  

I hope that by the time Brianna is in high school, she won't understand what the fuss was ever about in the first place.

But I feel very old because I remember the Valentine's Day demonstrations at the County Recorder's office, when a handful of people showed up trying to get marriage licenses while the police had to hold hostile angry men at bay to protect the demonstrators and big buses sat outside trying to keep people from supporting the demonstration.

Now they serve the demonstrators snacks and fly gay representatives in to talk with them and give their employees sensitivity training. The old gay and lesbian activists are being replaced by new young enthusiastic people. Times they aren't just a-changing, they have a-changed!


In case you want to disprove the theory that a watched pot never boils, you might want to check out this web cam, a barn cam of KpM Horses, owned by my friend Karen Malcor-Chapman.  Nana, the mare in the upper right stall is past her due date and is scheduled to deliver any. minute. now.   I've been watching Nana for 3 days now and I'm sure that she will deliver while I'm at my mother's tomorrow and I'll miss the whole thing, but in the meantime, I keep watching her for suspicious activity.

Monday, March 11, 2013

One of the Girls

We've made it all the way to March without the sad news of a death of a friend, but our luck ran out today, with this notice posted on Facebook:
It's with great sadness for me and my whole family that I share with you all that my wonderful uncle Bill Dahn passed away today after a sudden medical complication. ... I know you will all miss his thoughtful and humorous posts. He was a ray of light for so many people...his family most of all. Simply, the best uncle anyone could ever hope to have. I love you, Uncle Bill. I know you're at peace now. We will miss you.
BillDahn.jpg (54427 bytes)I've titled this entry "one of the girls," but Bill Dahn was a manly man, and every bit the gentleman.  He describes himself, in his Facebook profile, thusly:
I am a very complicated individual with some personality quirks. I am a very nice man that is kind and intelligent but shy. I am anything but cheap but will use coupons. I've been known to on the same day use coupons at the grocery store and spend five hundred dollars for concert tickets. I'm humorous at times, a deep thinker at times, very compassionate, like solitude as well as being with people. I would really need about ten thousand words to give the whole package about me.
Back in the dark ages of the Internet, when our group began to form on the Women's Issues forum of CompuServe, Bill started dropping in to leave a comment or two.  He was very polite, very supportive, and always apologized for being a man in a women's discussion group, but said that he enjoyed talking about issues with us.

He was concerned that we might feel uncomfortable if he joined us on our first group get together, our "Netstock" in Boulder, Colorado in 1996, but we urged him to come.  We had begun to know him by then and were eager to meet him.  He fit in perfectly, even as the only man in the group.  None of us thought it was odd at all.

We readily accepted him as "one of the girls" and though most of us had husbands who knew about the group and sometimes joined us at Netstock gatherings, Bill was really the only man who ever became one of us.

We had several subsequent Netstocks, including one that Bill hosted in Portland.  Knowing our love for creme brulee, he found us a restaurant with the best creme brulee ever (restaurant is gone now, but I still remember that creme brulee!) and Mary remembers his love of ducks--and his duck pajamas!  "His football team was the Oregon Ducks, and they did extremely well this past season.  Every time they played he would put on his lucky Duck pajamas and sit in his recliner to watch the game".

We were able to meet his parents on that trip and found them lovely people.  Bill's father died in 2003 and he has been devoted to his mother ever since, the son every aging parent would wish for.  She is going to miss him terribly.   As we all know, parents should not have to outlive their children.

BillsMom2.jpg (38110 bytes)This item from his blog, The Dahn Report (which he started in December 2007) shows his concern and care for his mother:
Every year of their marriage at Christmas time dad would buy her Chanel #5 perfume. Even when he had to work two jobs to afford it. When Dad died Mom had to let go of so many things I decided that she still needed the Christmas memory of Dad giving her perfume. Every Christmas I buy a Chanel #5 gift set for Mom. I get a friend whose handwriting mom wouldn't recognize to sign a card that says "With love. Watching over you from heaven. Your husband." On Christmas Eve when mom isn't watching I place the gift under tree. The next morning she always finds it.
.His love for his mother shines forth in most of his blog entries, including this one, which was the last entry he wrote about her, a week ago, a few days after his retirement party:
Mom is doing well but truthfully not as well as she does when I am involved. ..I've reached the state where I know I'm not going to have Mom that long so I view as a joy to spend time with her. I'm also a lot less controlling than the others involved in her care. She feels free to do things when I am there and it makes her feel more valuable. When the others are there they won't let her do things; they even get a little upset if she gets out of bed by herself. For me the more she can do for herself the better. For me. For her.
Bill's self-deprecating humor is also evident from his bio, which he posted with his Blog.
First, I think the birth sign is wrong. 6-21, some papers say Gemini, some Cancer. Guess that means I have so many personalities that I can do group therapy alone. For those that don't know how to read Google profiles I have put what I really mean in ( ). Hot (Good looking enough to be in movies (if I buy at ticket). A body like a God (Buddha). Romantic (Thinks begging is foreplay.) Physically fit (Heart trouble. Put 911 on speed dial before we get initmate.) Good Provider (has good life insurance in case you forget to put 911 on speed dial.) Loyal (has reference letters from Mom and parole officer.) Intelligent (scored 1600 on his SATS but you have to total the scores of the four times that I took the test.) Looking for someone compatible (Be between 30 & 99 and not inflatable.)
BillDahnStanding.jpg (29282 bytes)He listed his interests on The Dahn Report:

Interests: Walking, Movies, Reading, Fantasy Football, Writing, Family, Friends, Women, Coffee Chats, Food, Learning New Things, Award Shows, Ten Thousand More, I just like about everything except, hate, discrimination, and cruelty.

Favorite Movies: I just love movies, there is nothing like being in a theater when the lights go down low and a beautiful piece of art magically appears before you on the big screen. For two hours you are transcended out of life into fiction. If you have someone with you to hold hands with during the love scenes or to hide under the seats with during the scary scenes, all the better.

Bill's blog reflects his generosity, his interest in people, and his desire to be inclusive.  He encouraged participation from all of his readers and stimulated some lively discussions by posting biographies of famous people, quotes that he liked, and links to news items he found important and asking for comment.  Again, most of the regulars seemed to be women.  Sadly, though Bill got along so well with women, he was never able to connect with "that special someone" that he desperately wanted to find, though it wasn't for lack of trying.
About three weeks ago I got up in the morning and it just hit me. I am alone and don't want to be. Time to make some changes. Stair Step. First, get in shape. Second, get out in the world. I have a lot to offer someone but before someone gets to know me I have to take a risk and put myself out in the world. I immediately went on a diet. Started walking every morning. In just three weeks I've changed for the better. Feeling better. Looking better. Walking two miles a day. I can hardly wait until I reach my goal.
When Pat died, Bill wrote a memorial and posted this poem:

Is anybody happier today because you passed their way?
Does Anyone remember that you spoke to them today?
The day is almost over and its toiling tolling time is through
Is there anyone to utter a kindly word of you?
Can you say tonight in parting with the day that's slipping fast,
That you helped one of the many that passed your way?
Is a single heart rejoicing today over what you said or did?
Does the man or woman whose hopes were fading, now look ahead with courage?
Did you leave a trail of kindness?
As you close your eyes in slumber will God welcome you in his home?

He said that in Pat's case, she could answer every questions with a resounding "yes."  I think it's fairly safe to say that the same holds true for Bill Dahn as well.  He will be sorely missed by many.